I have always been one to be early. Part of it stems from hatred of being late....part of it stems from my complete inability to judge time. I always overestimate. if it takes 5 minutes, I give it 10.

Saturday... tomorrow ... is my first triathlon... not just of the season... but ever. This means that the usual race nerves are amplified times 100. They are the, I feel anxious all the time and I think I am going to be sick, kind of nerves.

"I'm trying to stay as calm as possible and focus one day at a time, but when reality sets in, I feel everything: anxiety, excitement, nerves, pressure and joy."

Wednesday I realized that there is a 4 hour time limit. I suppose when I sign up for these things I don't actually read the webpages.... because leading up to this when someone asked me when I expected to finish, my answer was 3.5-4 hours... leaning more towards the four.
...this is where the overestimating comes into play... or at least I hope. Open water swim... I have no idea.... bike.... negative.... transitions, what are those? I have no idea how long each will take, but when factoring in first time nerves I can imagine that I'll be a bit slower. The only event I have a semi idea of is my run.... which I then even questioned when I found, due to a last minute change in location, that the run will now be on gravel.

My goal? My only goal for tomorrow is to officially be a triathlete...and to not get a big fat DQ next to my name.

I must say... I'm very thankful for Jared and Siobhan Miller. Siobhan has kept me sane both at work, and outside of work. She is the best cheerleader. Jared will also be partaking in this rumpus tomorrow, and has been my source knowledge. And now, as he pulls pork in the kitchen, I sit here writing this... in disbelief that race season is here.

There is more to write about... testing out my wetsuit in the pool... the sideshow feel of the locker room as the other ladies watched me pull, tuck, jiggle and jump my way into my suit as they surrounded me... racing my swim coach cause my shit talk got me into trouble... But Ill leave you with this...

Even with triathlons I overpack.